One final note for Connor's 6 month birthday. This also marks 6 months of pumping for me. And yes, believe me, there are PLENTY of women who do this much longer than me, but for those of you that know me, I assume you're just as suprised at I am that I'm still going...
But trust me, I'm ready to quit. There are a few things running thru my mind as to why I haven't yet.
1. My original goal was to make it to the end of the year. I have 2.5 months left before accomplishing that goal.
2. If I were to save up enough milk to make it til Connor turns one and can have real dairy...I'd stop. But, I have NO idea how much milk babies drink in their 9-12 month stage. So if anyone could give me an idea of how much milk they go thru a day...that would be much appreciative.
3. It's going to hurt when I stop. I know it. Not looking forward to it.
4. However, it hurts right now (sorry for any TMI, trying to spare you the real details), so not sure what's worse.
5. I sold all of the free formula I got on ebay. So I'll feel kind of bad if I have to buy some.
6. Volleyball starts up again soon, twice a week. Would just be nice not to worry about it anymore.
7. Did I mention I'm a true 'bag lady' at work? Anytime anyone sees me in the hallway or stairwell or elevator with my two bags and laptop and stack of papers, they're always like, wow, you have a lot of stuff! Then they look down and have an 'oh...' moment, and they move on.
8. Oh. Ha, I keep thinking of things. I wash bottles and parts twice a day. Down from what it used to be, but still sucks.
9. The bottles and parts make my kitchen look messy. And I like my kitchen clean, I like my countertop that I picked out and would prefer not to clutter it up. Hmm. I suppose I'd still have his drinking bottles left, but I would start just throwing them in the dishwasher then.
10. Had to think of one more to make 10. I don't think number 7 really got to the true issue, I have bags with me everywhere. If I'm going anywhere for more than 5-6 hours during the day, I have to cart my two bags with me. To work, to my parents, along for a shopping trip to the cities. Along to a wedding to go pump in the car at night.
Yeah, ready to quit.
Speaking of milk stored up. I am officially 5 bags short of 400 bags. Yes. 400, 6 oz bags (ok technically 395 but who's counting). Seems like a lot, but right now he's going thru about 4-5 bags a day, so I know they'll go pretty fast once I stop, which makes me sad, I feel like I have a neverending supply in our freezer.
So yes, I have nightmares about our freezer breaking down and not noticing it until all my milk is spoiled.
Ok, that post got a little long, sorry.
Good night and have a GREAT weekend!